It took me a while to find that, but after discovering Phish i feel as if i have finally found it. my whole life i felt as if i was just a thing. Just a human taking up space, trying to figure out what the hell i am supposed to be doing. Every time i go to a show, or listen to the music, i know it is right. I just feel like there is nothing else that i should be doing. It's almost like floating... it is indescribable. now i have the deepest regret for the years that i wasted. you know that feeling when trey makes that face, and you can just tell that he loves what he is doing so much... that's how i feel about Phish. It sends chills down my body when i see their faces and hear their voices.

Now i don't know what to think, or how to feel, or how to act, i'm just stunned. i always thought that there would be more time. i guess i took them for granted, thinking they would always be together. i have to remind myself that they too are human and just like us, they need different things. I hope Trey, Mike, Jon, and Page enjoy their time. I hope they realize that they were a life altering experience for me and many others. I would not be who i am today with out them.

i waited too long, Coventry is sold out already, i had a feeling deep in my stomach that it would happen.  The thought of not seeing Phish one more time sent me into a deep depression. the only show i can catch this tour is Alpine Valley.

It hurts my heart to know that this will be the last time that i can experience what carries me though life. Tears come to my eyes when ever i think about it.

So thanks guys, you mean the world to me, your music changed my life and with out you i would still be wandering around aimlessly. Phish lives on for ever in my heart

- Jena