When I heard about the New Year's show at BC, I didn't have a decision to make... I was going no matter what. How could I miss something so special, about a band and the phans that I have loved for so long? Here's where my story takes a turn for the worst. 

We loaded up pretty good w/ favors, anticipating a 'dry' lot. Let me get straight to the point. The first day and a half was the best experience of my life, building up to a NYE that I would never forget. I had put way too many things in my system by now, w/o realizing what the consequences would be. We were about 20 rows from the front when 12:00 hit... then we retreated to the back for some room to get down. 

I lost my group in the sea of people... I became very disoriented and was beginning to have a very bad feeling building up inside of me. All that I wanted was to find my group and chill out. While wading through the people, I am confident that I stepped on, kicked, and disrupted several of the many people trying to enjoy the best Phish show of all time. After the set was over, I realized that there were a few very angry phans... actually, I was followed for quite some time. 

My campsite was under 'watch,' and I was forced to know that I really pissed some people off. I was tired, scared, upset... you name it, I felt the emotion. I would like to take this opportunity to let the people know (who know who I am), and believe me, I know you know, I am very, very sorry about my actions that night. I can understand that on the outside I looked like any other wasted person walking around, not giving a shit about Phish. I actually am just the opposite, which is why I am so pissed at myself for getting so carried away. 

I know this may not solve everything, but I mean it from the bottom of my heart when I say that I am deeply sorry for those that were affected by my actions. Please respond to my email so I can apologize to you one on one. Again, I hope we can put this behind us and continue to enjoy the best band and vibe on this earth.

 - Feeling like an ass