so, I was getting fed up, I just wanted to see them, if only in my dreams; it would still have been real enough for me. In the dreams I felt the anticipation and excitement.  In the dreams, I felt like I do at a show, and so, on Aug 14, I went to work....

I got out at 2:30 and came home to check my e-mail.... my inbox was full; it had a ton of new messages, and all of them said either no subject, or RE:, so I had no idea what was going on.  I figured that someone sent out an e-mail and all my friends got into a big conversation, an e-mail circle of death. well, I look at my very first e-mail, from Phish-News... subj: THE HIATUS, and my heart stopped..... could this be it???

as I opened it up, I felt my pulse quicken, my breath go short, and as I read those 2 words, IS OVER!!! I stared at the computer screen in awe....could this be????

Who do I call, what e-mails do I read??? I felt like standing on my deck and screaming PHISH IS BACK!!!!!! My brother and I began our afternoon of making and receiving non stop phone calls, telling people who thought I was playing a cruel joke.  It was only when they heard the urgency in my voice that they knew, and they let out the same yelp that I did...

I read my e-mails, I paced in circles around the house, I called my mom.... more importantly, I BLASTED Phish, and I danced around the house, pretending I was dancing in the aisles at the garden, like I am praying to be in 4 months.  I celebrated, I went out for beers, and I was positively glowing. 

My face hurt from all the smiling I did.  Every emotion I hadn't had in so long, the emotions that are on some other level of consciousness that only Phish knows how to get to, were coming out, and (getting chills right now) my God have I missed these feelings!! It's beyond happy, it's beyond excited, it's PHISH!!!!

and to make things even better, i dreamt that night that i was at a phish show, and this time, I was there in dream land when phish took the stage.... what did they play? All I remember is Mountains in the mist.... why?? who knows, maybe because "I was soaring far too high," as the song says....

Trey came into the audience and danced some weird dance, and somehow ended up asking me what I thought of the show... I have no idea; I can't remember what I said, and I don't really care... all I know is that Phish is playing soon, and hopefully, I will be there for that glorious moment when the lights go down and the boys the stage...

- me